Today Saturday, May 14, 2016
I have finally gotten onto the Breaking Bad train although I think I am about 3 years behind. Haha… Well I have been busy, and I just am now open my eyes to some bomb shows like Game of Thrones, Masters of Sex, Outlander, and many many others (to be honest shows like UnReal and Bates Motel need more cred). I am a huge show fanatic, and I am surprised it took me this long to finally binge watch the hell out of Breaking Bad. It’s so good. I am so glad my best friend (also ex-boyfriend) got me started on this show. We watched it from the beginning together.
Also, if you haven’t check my two other pages Music Obsessions and Current Makeup Look, you should definitely do that. I am definitely going to update my Music Obsessions as often as me finding music. That is about every Friday. In my Music Obsessions , there is this song called 2 Phones originally by Kevin Gates and William Singe covered it.
It is SOOOOOOO damn good. I love him. That’s what I am currently listening on repeat as I am talking to you guys.
Thoughts on my life today:
I’ve been in love with one man for 3 years now. He is literally my best friend, and I think I am his best friend. He knows about everything about my life, but we aren’t together right now. Then, there is just this guy. He is my ex-boyfriend’s best friend. Did I mention how bad that is? Well that’s really bad. This is probably the most horrible thing I have ever done. I don’t even quite understand why I am doing what I am doing. I understand that yeah I am physically attracted to this guy, but he should be unavailable to me. So why am I still wondering about him and especially physically? Is the fact that he is suppose to be bad? I don’t know… Have I always been attracted to him, but only now openly accept that I like him the way I do. Am I just emotionally messed up right now and I am just looking for something physically satisfying? I really should think about more why I picked this guy over just meeting someone new…
I just ate this beautiful covered strawberry at a 60th wedding anniversary. I definitely feel the love tonight. I can only imagine how it would feel to love someone and be with someone for even just half of that time. I really can’t wait to be with someone as passionate as I felt from the bride and groom tonight.
The Night Check-In:
In life, I don’t know what I’m doing. I really have no clue what the hell I’m doing. I can only hope that the happiness I have today will enlighten my future. I really hope me doing my one stupid love thing will be a good thing especially picking someone I trust.