I don’t know what I am feeling right now.
When I listen to a song like Latch by Sam Smith, I can just imagine you here.
The way you smile at me whenever I say anything dark and slightly funny
The way you touch my hands while we are watching a movie
The way in your sleep you always come back to hold me
The way you throw the blanket over me when you realize you took it all
The way you throw me across the bed as a joke
The way you tell me about your life and your problems
The way you advise me on how to improve in school
The way you held my face when you’re looking at me
The way you pay attention to me in your room as if I funniest thing in the world
The way you kiss me over and over again just because I looked up to you
The way you ignore your phone as much as possible when I’m around
The way you make me laugh whenever I say “Excuse me”
The way you hold me in bed while we talk about stupid things
The way you always make time for me
The way you stall your day
The way you drunk text me to come and cuddle
The way you focus on my needs
The way you look at me whenever I’m talking to you
Part of me knows that we are getting serious. Part of me knows that I am starting to fall for you. The way you make me feel. The way you make me believe in you. The way you make me feel safe in this world. It just fits too well. It makes me want to fall harder for you. I never had a man look at me when you did. It wasn’t when you looked at my body that has gotten my attention. It’s the way that you take moments in our time together to tell me “You’re so cute” and just staring into my eyes silently. This weekend has gotten me falling for you more than I ever thought. I have spent every night this weekend with you, and in a way, I miss waking up to you. It’s really relaxing and quite comforting. I just am so happy to be with you, and I can’t describe why that single moment is deeply embedded into my mind. I never felt so admired before. Right now, all I want to do is just watch that Romantic Comedy all over again to just see you look at me the way you did. I think this is what love is suppose to feel as it grows. This is something different for me. I may have never knew what love was.